This week God spoke to me. Not in the same way that you or I would speak...but I know that He has answered my prayer. Also, He answered my prayer with a "no" and, once again, He knows best. I received some disappointing news early this week. I had been hoping for something very much, and, without any discussion or an explanation, I was told "no". At first I felt like I was crashing. I had really wanted this particular thing! I thought it would be the best for my family! Certainly this was a mistake...God must have forgotten to put in for this request of mine to be answered in the positive. As I was on the verge of doing my same-old-same-old: spiraling downwards in emotions and blaming God...I felt myself being reminded of the words I had written and felt at the start of the week: Jesus, thank you. So I stopped. In the silence of my bedroom at 2 in the morning, while my house slept, I prayed: "Thank you for this answer. Show me why it was my answer. Let me see you in this too.". And then I slept. In the morning I sat down, reviewed my options and felt peace. In those short hours God allowed me to see that this was best. His "no" meant less stress and more time at home with my kiddos. His "no" meant I could be the best me without having to compromise or feel like I was "failing" in one or more areas of life. His "no" said to me "I know what is best, trust me.". Now, I am so excited for this next chapter of life. Not going to lie, I am still nervous and apprehensive, but I know that God's got this! Its so exciting being able to see Him in my life and knowing that no matter what: I can trust in the one who answers prayers.
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